romantic dinners on an ordinary day; a bouquet of flowers;
a walk in the rain, with nothing to say;
a cuddle in front of the fireplace on a cold winter night,
a light kiss …. just because.
All is well, but love is unrecognizable until it’s tested.
Remember the fight we had when we both were too stubborn to say “I’m sorry”? I stayed out all night, and yes, you’re right, I wasn’t alone. I responded irresponsibly, and made wrong choices, but two wrongs don’t make a right.
When you felt pain I wasn’t there; when you needed to talk I couldn’t hear; when you needed a shoulder to cry on, I was somewhere else. The part of you that really needed me died a slow and painful death, because of spiritual and emotional neglect.
Our matrimonial equilibrium was mortally wounded, but I didn’t know. I was neglected too! I couldn’t give what I didn’t have. If we had been shot, we could have gone to a doctor. If we had suffered from spiritual anemia we could have gone to a minister. If we had been homeless we could have gone to a shelter.
But, what do you do when your marriage is dying right before your eyes, when you’re young and untested? Where do you go? Who do you talk to?
A love that stand under all kinds of pressure and trials, regardless of who fault it is, is a love worth saving. Now I feel alive, abundantly! I know what mean to say “I love you”. I know how to be unselfish, humble and compassionate, empathetic, intimate, passionate, romantic and, loving.
I know how to be man, husband, father, provider and, protector. I was once ashamed of who I was; now I can’t wait to prove who I am. Go ahead ….. test me! I’m as real as rain, and will surpass even your expectations.
I’ve been tested …., and am still standing!